Decisions. Decisions.

Decisions. 

Today I am thankful for decisions. Being able to make decisions. MY OWN decisions. 

Lately life has been a complete drag. Day by day I just am present. Physically present. I can’t remember the last day I was mentally present in my life. Which is honestly sad; how often we become physically present, stuck in a routine we can’t seem to become mentally present in. 

Everyday I go to work, I go home, dinner is made, and tv is watched the rest of the night, Monday-Friday. When was the last time during the work week I enjoyed doing something at work, before work, after work? That’s what it seems to have become work work work, and nothing else. 

I have let my subconscious make decisions for me, by not being mentally present. 

Because of this I feel I am strained. My relationship is strained, my friendships are strained, my mind is strained, my LIFE is strained. Who knew at 21 years old I could be so strained... 

I’ve made the decision this isn’t right. Whether you’re 21 or 65, living a strained life, is exhausting. I think more about what I should be doing, instead of going out and doing it. The phrase often crosses my mind “my life would be so much better if...” well why can’t my life be better? Who says it can’t be better? 

I thought about 3 simple things I could start doing that make me mentally present: 

Be Happy- Not just physically happy, here’s a smile on my face. But mentally happy, mentally present in my own happiness. It’s easy to fake a smile and walk away, what’s hard is to mentally allow yourself to always be happy. Am I saying I’ll never have a bad day, or an off day? No, I’m saying I’m going to be a happier person. Find the good in all that I can without a second thought. It is your decision to let yourself be happy. Worn out at your current job? Think about what you’ve always wanted to do. Is it what you’re currently doing? Why not do it? Is it unachievable? Why is it unachievable? Make a list. Set goals. Accomplish those goals. Make a difference if hour life for your own happiness. This could go so far beyond just your job, it could be your relationship, your friendships, just your life in general. Start accomplishing things that set you in the direction of defining your own happiness. Save money, spend money. Take that vacation, take that day off. Spend an entire day all about you. Do things that make YOU mentally happy. 

Be Healthy- Yes. There’s physically healthy, mentally healthy, emotionally healthy....but it still goes deeper than that. When I say I want to be healthy, I mean doing things that make those above easier. Have a healthier home. Live in a healthier environment. Have a healthier work space. Keep a mindset of having everything that surrounds me, healthy. Which will make the “obvious” ones more achievable.

 Do Something - Everyday, do something. Whether that be takings the dogs for a walk, or playing with them outside. Making dinner with my boyfriend or, for him. Going out and just browsing a shopping mall. Going and getting new ideas, seeing new things, trying new things, being creative. Everyday, I want to do something. I am so over doing nothing, working all day long, and doing nothing else. It is miserable, and I am restless. I need to release my energy by doing things. I sit all day long, then come home and sit all night long. Even if it’s 30 minutes in the snow with my dogs, or going to the pet store. Trying to do something everyday, to ease my mind, and add experience to my life. Doing something to get my mind active, and moving, and thinking, instead of stuck to daily routine.

I believe by starting with these 3 simple habits and turning them into habits will help me be mentally present. It will help me get my mind working, and not being so “robotic” stuck on routine. Life is not a routine, and it certainly should not mold into that.

Today I will make the decision to be mentally present. 

Be kind. Laugh often. Be happy.